Shadows of a Quill

A lot of people are hurting right now.  The economy is worse then anyone is willing to admit, and so are the hearts of so many.  You have enriched my life in countless ways.  Our children are healthy.  My marriage is aged well beyond our years, and more fulfilling then I ever thought possible.  Our ability to pay our bills is increasing, where so many others are decreasing.  Our daily drama load has been next to nothing.  On top of all of that, You have allowed us to see You in so many places, people, and events around us.

I am not worthy.

Friends and family look at us from the outside, and are compelled to wonder what we have that they don’t.

It’s You!

Even though we have made so many mistakes, you continue to forgive us and bless us.  I hope that the people around us draw closer to you.  Not so that they can pay their bills, but so they can feel what I feel right now.  I feel like I am being courted by You. The almighty God of all creation.  Forever sovereign, warden to the lightning and earthquakes, keeper of all life, giver of all love.

Broken little pathetic me, who cries at the thought of such a God; as would want me, who can add nothing to You.  I can give you nothing that you don’t already have, yet you chase after me.  How can there be so much love?  I can’t even comprehend, in my broken body or my broken mind, ever loving that much.   How can you not grow weary of my stupid mistakes and my selfish desires?  I try to justify myself, yet you await me with the ultimate justification… love.  What can I do in return, except be undeserving.

As minimalistic as it may be, all I have is my gratitude and praise, so… thank You Jesus!